Day two after chemo

I know what you’re thinking, ‘she only posted yesterday’, but, this is new and like all new things, I’ll get it out regularly until the novelty wears off!

I just want to mention now before I go on any further. As my tumour was oestrogen positive I had to come off my HRT so therefore I am going through the menopause. My menopause brain is currently merging with my chemo brain so please bear with.

Last night a managed to sleep a whole four hours before insomnia kicked in around 3.15am. In those four hours I only needed to pee six times so this morning I’m as fresh as a daisy! Well maybe not.

I am feeling really well still. Pretty much like a hangover. Still not 100% my head is achy and stomach still trying to figure out what I’ve given it – the chemo not Rob’s cooking. I’m not going to take this as a sense of security, just each moment at a time.

Had a little wobble in the shower this morning, have made mental note to next time take a friend!

I need to work on this sleep. I still can’t lay for long on my right side. My arm and breast are still a bit sensitive from the surgery. Breast is starting to give me sharp shocks of pain every now and then and I instantly think ‘is it back already?’ I know really it’s not so I do have conversations with myself.

So I turn into my left side and there he is. I’m lucky he doesn’t snore but why do they have to breathe? It’s really annoying at times. I do wake him to stop but he just takes it that I’m asking him to roll over, which he does. There you go, no breathing in my face, no pain, just get comfy – then I need to pee!!

Today is my big sister’s birthday. She has been my other rock. Always has, always will. I sent hubby to get her a card yesterday, he came back with a nice bit of ham, no card.

I asked him to put the uniform wash on. He did a dark wash and a light wash so that was really good. I walked into their rooms last night and there were said uniforms on the floor in the position which they fell off children’s bodies! Obviously he didn’t notice uniform wash lacked ‘uniform’. Can’t complain, at least he is helping. He has gone up town to get birthday card and I’ve put washing on.

Last Wednesday I went for my wig fitting. We had to go to Southend, hubby and sister came with me. It was the most exciting day I’d had in ages. I tried on so many wigs, different lengths and colours and came away with a chestnut bob with highlights. It looks really nice and natural. I took it out the box, put it on the stand and that’s where it’s stayed.

Once we were home my sister (who is a hairdresser) gave me a number two all over. I actually love it and can’t stop stroking myself. Although I was horrified I woke up with bed hair! Who’d have thought!

I’m purposefully not wearing my wig yet. I don’t want to become reliant on it straight away. I also want the children to get used to me with very little hair. I’ve got just over a week before it will start falling out. At least, well I’m hoping, it won’t be so drastic for us all.

At the wig shop I tried on a few different styles of headscarves too. I’m so glad I did before I went and bought some. I know the styles I like now and they aren’t the ones I thought. The cute hat type ones made me feel like I was wearing a swimming hat!

I can hear hubby’s car so best I sign out and pretend I’ve had a sleep. Thank you for all your positive messages yesterday. Any feedback is good xx