Never just assume

As I sat outside my youngest daughter’s classroom, quietly minding my own business looking through her books before meeting with the teacher, she stood next to me affectionately stroking my head. Or so I thought. All of a sudden she stood tall and proudly shouted “mummy has 17 sores on her head!” Now I’m not embarrassed at all of my shaved, red, sore head but that moment in time, I think I was a little bit!

It is funny, every night I go to bed I put my hands up to take out my ponytail and realise it isn’t there. All through the night I stroke my head expecting there to be a bald patch. I am now day 13 so it is going to fall out any day. The chemo nurse said it usually starts between day 10 and 14. I may need to shave my legs if it’s much longer!

I am still feeling good. I think I’ve got off lightly compared to others going through chemo. My head hurts all night and I still get up feeling sick every day. I am only peeing now about five times a night. Yesterday I had to go to bed for a little nana nap. I haven’t had to do that since last week. Just listening to my body and going with it.

If it wasn’t for the lack of womb and other things you have to do, I’d think I was pregnant! Feeling nauseous, tiredness,  cravings, peeing, mood swings, hormonal, eating for two!

Yesterday I received my two phone calls. I actually cried when I got the first one. They had been following my progress and seen the amount of support I was getting. Yes it’s been wonderful and I’m not knocking it at all but sometimes there’s only the one person you want. We had such a lovely chat and both agreed not to leave it so long.

I am very excited my beautiful cousin is coming to visit me next week. We are a rubbish family at keeping in touch. Like a lot of families (I hope it’s a lot and we aren’t just horrible) we only see each other at weddings or funerals, at our age, mainly funerals. I haven’t seen her since my nan’s funeral nearly 4 years ago, could be 5 – chemo brain. Thank goodness for Facebook!

Yesterday was a pj day but today my son has an appointment (following on from Monday). Very impressed it’s so quick so it means I have to get dressed and I get to go out. Going to see my big sister after so today is going to be a good day.

Thank you for all your messages the other day. I was fine, just being honest on here. It is helping me writing it all down too. I also had a lovely little visitor who brought the most amazing cupcakes! Seeing you all is enough, you don’t really have to bring cake.

Not much to report which in itself is a good thing. Have a lovely day people, only one more sleep until the weekend and the kiddies break up xx