Look good, feel better

Such a true statement. I’d read about a charity who holds this workshop. Had a google and booked myself on it. I attended on Monday. Again I wasn’t feeling myself, very dizzy and wobbly so wasn’t too sure I should go. I also had to take myself as needed Rob here to pick up little one. But, I am so glad I did.

I spent a couple of hours with ladies going through the same as me, we were all different ages and at different stages in our treatment. The ladies running the workshop were amazing. We were shown how to put make up on, some ladies had never worn make up before. We came away with a bag full of everything we would need (apparently £300 worth). I would thoroughly recommend anyone going through cancer to attend one. Although I can do make up, I haven’t put much slap on during all this. I came away feeling amazing.

When I got home my little one was laying on the floor, in her uniform, watching telly. I asked if she wanted to go out for dinner, without moving her eyes off the telly ‘no’.

‘I will wear my wig’. With this she jumped up, her eyes beaming and hugged my legs. Ran upstairs and got changed (huge achievement). In the car she didn’t stop stroking my shoulder. Held my hand and wanted to sit next to me. She smiled all evening. I never realised how a little thing would make such a big difference. This really does affect all of us, more than I probably realise.

I started writing this blog initially for those the closest to me to try and understand what this is doing to all of us. Obviously raising any awareness is also fantastic. I was a little surprised that a few, who I probably was writing this for, haven’t read it. I was told if I wa t to know anything I’d ask. It isn’t as simple as that. I don’t talk about everything, it’s hard to completely open up, especially when you know what you’re thinking the automatic answer will be ‘don’t be so silly’.

Someone said they didn’t read it because they don’t like the name. It’s not a case of sod them as these people mean the world to me. I chose the name as ‘jubblies’ can mean boobies, the ‘j’ and to put a little humour on this. I’m not going to apologise if anyone finds it derogatory. This is my cancer and I am coping with it my way. I find writing this really helpful and if only one person gets anything from this then all is good.

My legs are still very achy and I am dizzy but I think I probably was before this started! Each day I am getting stronger, ready in time for my next cycle next week. Knowing it’s only next week actually makes me feel sick. Ok try not to think about that, we still have this week.

Not much to report but thought I should say something, unlike me I know! Off to the dentist then picking number three child up for an appointment this afternoon. Have a good week people xx